Yesterday marked the 2-month point since I got implanted. Some things have changed, and some things feel the same. I still feel as deaf as before, even though I’m hearing more sounds.
Felt dizzy for part of the morning, which progressed into a headache, (but after an hour of talking about quantum theory, blackbodies, and theories of waves/light at 8 am, you would get one too), which resulted in the suppression of the gag reflex, not fun.
I keep forgetting that I can’t move fast, and simple things like taking 3 flights of stairs, seeing things move rapidly, or going over a speed bump can trigger bouts of dizziness. Maybe it is a sign that I need to slow down once and for all.
As for my big lecture class, Mandy suggested getting an FM system (oh how times have changed from my stubborn resistance of the elementary school years). After last week’s “noisy” class, I’m more open to the concept. She did some research into the auditorium that I have class in, and unfortunately, it isn’t wired for it (the others on campus are), so I have to meet with the Dean of my college to get that started (it’s under their responsibility). I hate asking my teacher to wear another mic, since she already is wearing one for the hearing kids, or for anything else.
Mandy started actual therapy today, and boy was it different than testing, which was easy for me. We did categories of words in ABC order, and some of those animals we had never heard of before, such as Ibix, Numbat, Quokka, and we were like “WHAT?!?!?!”. Several I had trouble with because speech has been sounding funny to me lately, especially over the weekend. I was getting really frustrated on some of the sentences, because it sounded nothing like what I thought it would, or only got parts of it. And when you start having trouble with basic words that were easy before, that’s not good.
Mandy’s also started coming down on my speech errors, so one word I repeated wrong today didn’t come out the way it was supposed to, and sounded like a gross slang word that rhymes with Chart. Oy. At least she’s awesome about it lol. I know I get lazy with speech sometimes, I can say it, but I don’t always do so, resulting in embarrassing situations, or situations that were made worse (a.k.a. “what a big plane” incident).
By the end of the week, I will have a new/adjusted MAP. Catherine’s going to sit in for the first session. My homework (from what Megan told Mandy about our past sessions) is that I need to figure out which of the three I like the best and why, and come prepared with information. Each one has its own positives and negatives, so it’s hard for me to make comparisons, especially since it seems to change over time!
I’ve been asked to be involved in an upcoming project, but mum’s the word till I find out more/it actually happens.
Poetry class, my teacher was pleased with my poem. I actually ended up having to read both poems, and explain why I wrote/picked the one that I did. I scrapped the first one (which was a modification of a poem pre-CI), and kept the brand new second one (post-CI), and she wanted to know why. I tried my best to explain briefly that I cannot write poetry based on sound that I knew with my hearing aid, versus sound that I now hear with my CI. It’s a whole new dynamic, that allows greater material for creativity. Why write about the exterior shell, when there’s a whole new smorgasbord of details? I find it hard to explain how it’s different, but she understood immediately.
I was in the darkroom tonight developing with Sam, and I could hear the ratchet-ratchet as she wound her film onto the developing roll. I could hear the different noises that the tools made, clattering against the counter, all in total darkness and not having any visual clues. I felt like I was watching her work, but only through my hearing.
While she developed our film, I helped another classmate, Jen A., by modeling for her project. Matt W. saw us and came over to say hi. The three of us sprawled out in the grass, soaking up the last of the sunshine, as we discussed the upcoming projects for the week for class. Conversation turned to CIs, and since I’ve been back to school, I’ve loved the reactions that people have (especially hearing people with no prior knowledge about CIs).
But that’s a story for another day.