The Bionic Sound Project

this girl’s journey to sound

Snow, More Mix-Ups, and Incoming Freshmen Saturday, December 9, 2006

Woke up to snow this morning…had about 3 inches on the ground, but by the time I got outside, it had been plowed, so I didn’t get to experiment with the sounds. Basically it sounds the same, but there’s more of a musical “squelch” as your boots press down on the packed snow.

Yesterday, I mentioned that when I had the hearing aids, I didn’t like the sound and feel of snow squishing on asphalt/concrete, nor did I like walking on it. It still holds true. What I can’t figure out is how much of it do I hear versus how much of it do I “feel”? It was too noisy outside with all the environmental noises plus my boots didn’t help.

While waiting for my lunch today, I had the realization that I was hearing more with the CI than with the HA. Maybe I need to change the battery. Maybe I’m just becoming more dependent on the CI for listening. Either way, it’s neat to see the dependence change from hearing aid to cochlear implant.

AB sent us a bill for $175.00 for the headpiece. This goes back to the screw-up that was supposed to be taken care of on September 29th. *sigh* We sent it back, per the instructions we got over the phone, and it’s still an issue.

I’ve been having rushing noises in my ear since I got home and laid down to rest on the futon. It only happens when I move from side to side, and feels/sounds like the tide coming in, growing louder and louder till it crashes against the shore. It’s a bit uncomfortable, but I’m used to it since I lived with it for one month after surgery. Just weird to have it back after not having it for awhile.

We had an open house today at school, and all the Special Interest Houses were there to meet with prospective freshmen and give tours of our floors. At one point, a tour group of deaf kids and their parents came in, and I was looking to see how many had cochlear implants (about 75% of the group, mostly Nucleus, which is about right, considering the ratio between CI companies here on campus).

I was at the table for Photo House, and out of all of them, ours was the only one that had a deaf person at it (me). It was nice being able to talk to the prospective students and sign with them, whereas the other houses didn’t. It’d be nice to have a bigger mix, but the world doesn’t work that way. There’s still a cultural divide between the deaf and hearing worlds, but it’s getting better here. Much better than when I first set foot on campus several years ago. As for our house, I’m the only deaf member, and there is one that is hard-of-hearing but doesn’t sign.

Several members are learning sign through the ASL class, which is pretty cool, and I’m proud of them for doing that. However, I feel conflicted between being me, which is speaking versus signing to them to help them learn. The reason is because I’m not good at signing and speaking at the same time, because my hands can’t keep up with my mouth and brain! That, and I find it odd to sign to a person who can understand me when I’m speaking and doesn’t know sign!

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The Airport Announcements Sunday, December 3, 2006

Saturday, I flew back to school. I had a nearly 2.5 hour layover in Cleveland, Ohio. While waiting at the gate, I was approached by a deaf young man, John T., who also goes to school with me. Felt like I had seen him before, but we found out we had some mutual friends in common, and figured that’s how we probably met. Gotta love the deaf community.

Anyway, the gate I was at, had multiple planes at it (the kind where you have to walk down the stairs and out onto the tarmac). This lead to staggered boarding, as they were boarding the multiple cities at different times.

What I was so excited about was while I was engaged in a conversation in sign, I heard them saying word-for-word over the PA, “we are now boarding for Rochester, New York” and I said to my new friend, “that’s us!”

It was so weird to be able to be engaged in conversation in a noisy airport, and hear the announcement word for word in the background. And at the same time, absolutely THRILLING to be able to understand it with the cochlear implant.

Flying was much better this time around, but my ear still doesn’t like the pressure on it. But I didn’t feel dizzy/off-balance after getting off the plane, and going through the security pat-down was quick, compared to last time I flew out of Phoenix.

I forgot to mention in yesterday’s entry that Megan has been listening to Christina Aguilera way more than I have, and every time she hears her music, she thinks of me. I infect people with the Christina goodness!

My focus since I’ve been activated was to listen to a diversity of music, mostly my favorite songs, to retrain my brain to associate that pulse with that sound. Now that I’ve trained my ears with different music and it is starting to sound natural, I may start listening to Christina’s new stuff more.

I think I didn’t want to corrupt her beautiful voice with the CI until I could get a sense of normalcy with music.

Megan also said that music will be so much better with the Harmony, and both she and Dr. M can’t wait to see what I think of it as compared to the Auria, since I’m a music fanatic.

I also learned that I have to wait for a letter from Advanced Bionics, that will explain about how to get the Harmony, then I have to call and order it, then bring it in to program it. Just a month to two months to go!

A lot of people are getting implanted in January, because they want to get two Harmony processors. I’m glad I got implanted when I did, because I want to enjoy the Harmony when it’s turned on, now that I’m doing reasonably well with the Auria.

Ok, 6:35 am, and I should go do something productive before heading out to the Toy Fair and sushi with my friends! A new sound adventure awaits, and this time it’s one of my favorite things…TOYS!

 

The Three-Month Checkup Friday, December 1, 2006

I had my three-month checkup today with Dr. M and saw Megan for a mapping session. It was at 1, but I thought it was at 11 instead and was there early. But it was 1 pm in NY time, so I get credit for that! But Dr. M was nice enough to see me anyway, and had me come back at 1 to see Megan.

Prognosis is that I’m doing great.

Megan changed the M and T levels, and gave me a program that will work in noisy situations. So now I have one for normal life, one for noise, and one for the iPOD.

I did show up with the kumquats, and she laughed. ^.^ Told ya I would bring you some, and I’m one who sticks to my words!

Got 42% on my listening test for speech in noise, which was better than what I got with the hearing aids, but could be better. (I’m a perfectionist). I had a hard time with the beep test, because I thought I was hearing a kind of prolonged high-frequency noise, so I wasn’t sure if I was hearing it or not.

The most interesting part of the visit was when I was talking to Dr. M about the vertigo episodes from October, where he said it could be a migraine. Not the typical migraine that people think of, as there are many types of migraines in different parts of the body, including the abdomen. So it could be a type of cranial migraine, I think that’s what he said.

Anyway, to avoid that, it involves watching my caffeine, chocolate, and yellow cheese(!!!) intake. Managing stress is also another key factor. But the cheese has to do with the dye in it, and all three come from a bean, and they haven’t figured out why it causes that. Caffeine isn’t an issue, as I’m not a coffee drinker and rarely consume soda. I do like chocolate, and cheese to a degree (rather picky though).

Heading back to school tomorrow for three weeks. I’m not ready for another quarter!

I hope the next quarter will rock academically, because I did extremely well with the Cochlear Implant, for my first quarter having it. I made the Dean’s List for the first time what feels like forever and got a 3.58 for the quarter. It was amazing, especially to get the A in that class I was struggling with in terms of access services. We’ll see what happens winter quarter, as I’m choosing to fly solo…

 

The First Update On Sounds I’ve Heard While At Home Sunday, November 19, 2006

Here’s the brief update of the last 3 or so days that I have been home.

Flying was okay, no major problems there, but I really appreciate the separation and clarity of sound that the CI gives. However, my inner ear didn’t seem to like flying that much, as I felt a bit separated/off-balance when changing planes and when I arrived at home.

Mom says I seem to have a little bit of trouble understanding her or not hearing her as well as I did in the past. I’m not sure if it’s an adjustment period or what. But it too, shall pass.

She did say that my speech sounds so much better than it did before. As a matter of fact, when I answered the phone with my standard “hello, hold on please”, and handed the phone to my mom, it was my godmom on the other end of the phone. She asked my mom “who was that? I didn’t recognize who it was.” She said my speech was so clear, but she couldn’t understand what I was saying because I talked really fast. (Sorry, Karen! I know I’m supposed to slow down!)

Here’s what I’ve been hearing since I’ve been home.

11/17/06 – the cat (Benny) giving himself a bath. He’s noisy when he licks himself, making this kind of slurping/gulping sound. I can’t describe it. But I was like, holy cow, you’re that noisy when taking a bath? I could also hear him purr without being next to his head.

11/17/06 – hearing the music from the itty-bitty speakers attached to my iPOD playing in my room upstairs, while walking around downstairs.

11/18/06 – the very beginning of the quiet growl that Pippen makes before she goes into a full-blown hiss, and the details that make up her hiss/growl language. I also got bitten (more than once) while trying to cut the mats out of her fur, before she finally peed on me. *sigh*

11/18/06 – hearing Pippen hiss at the dog, before she smacks Elizabeth and tells her to mind her own business. I could hear it, but couldn’t see it.

11/18/06 – the “rhhhk-rhhhk” of the nail file as mom was filing her nails while we were watching a movie. It was driving me nuts! Haha.

11/19/06 – hearing the hydroplane boats at Firebird Lake in the distance (just barely, and only if it was absolutely silent). The lake is about 15-20 miles away from my house. It sounded like a very low “mmmmm”. However, while typing this as my mom’s on the phone, I just heard the bigger boat clearly. My eyes widened, and Mom looked over at me and said, “yep that was the boats.”

As for my guinea pig, he just came home from being boarded at the vet yesterday morning, and I haven’t really had time to see what he sounds like. He was really cute though, when I put him on the floor to run around. It was safe to do so, as the entire first floor is empty, and we are still doing work downstairs. Right now, he doesn’t want to get up and greet the day. He’s usually very vocal in the morning, but not today. We checked on him to make sure he was okay, and he ran out of his house, and as soon as we set it back down, he ran back into it and went back to sleep. I think he was worn out from running around downstairs.

I wasn’t able to get an appointment to see Dr. M and Megan for this break, and have to wait till January! But I will be able to see Susan, and I am excited about that!

I go back to work tomorrow and that’s going to bring a whole new plethora of sounds for me. Whee!

 

My First Workout and Being Grossed Out Saturday, November 11, 2006

Wednesday, my sound discovery was hearing a classmate of mine cracking her thumbs about 8 feet away from me during critique.

That afternoon, I found out that I won’t be able to get the support services that I want for my major class next quarter. After much conversation, Anne and Sheila both recommended that I not do it, as I’m not ready to be independent with the CI. So I had to rearrange my winter quarter schedule. *grumbling*

It just further resolves my desire to work harder at it, but it doesn’t help when I’m not in the mood to work with Sound&Beyond. I went to lunch at the Commons, after picking up my replacement 18-hour battery from Mandy. Ran into MK there, and we talked about planning for the Holiday Party. Rockin’ The Holidays is probably going to be the name.

Friday was my 4-month anniversary of getting the CI. It was also supposed to be my last session with Mandy for the quarter, but it got canceled. It has been rescheduled it to Monday. We are going to do testing to see how much hearing I’ve gained in 3 months, and also check the T-levels.

Friday wasn’t a good day, as it seemed like everything happened at once, so I was in a bad mood that night, especially after my camera stopped working near the end of my final project photo shoot. My other friend Matt convinced me to go to the gym and work out to relieve my frustration. It was the first time I had worked out since getting the CI, and I went for a 35-minute 2-mile run. It felt SO good, especially when you cross over the plateau between pushing yourself, and feeling unstoppable…the second wind.

The real kicker came in after I headed downstairs to the pool to do some laps. It was the first time I’ve gone swimming underwater since surgery, so I was excited about starting that again. I miss swimming 2 to 4 miles a day, as I used to do that every day in high school, swimming for the nationally ranked #2 girls high school swim team. I wasn’t sure how doing flip turns would affect the CI, but I found out the hard way when I got out of the pool.

My ears hurt a little bit in the pool, but it was nothing compared to the disrupted sense of balance. I was having a hard time staying upright, and felt like I was falling over (to the left). The lifeguard was looking at me strangely, and I do have to admit I probably looked like I was drunk because I was using the wall for support while walking back to the play pool, and stopping every few feet.

I think I’m going to skip on doing flip turns for awhile.

After swimming for a few hours, we went to watch Final Destination 2, which I hadn’t seen yet. I was grossed out by the death scenes in the movie, but it was made worse by the detail of the SOUND in the movie, when I actually watched the death scenes. I could tell the difference because I dove under the blanket when it looked like something gory was going to happen, and I could hear it and felt sick to my stomach! Maybe I won’t wear the CI when watching these types of movies, because the detail of the sound is just more than I ever expected. Eeeeewww. P.S. Mandy, the first movie was the best, this one is just icky.

To make up for the ickiness (lol, I sound like Jen G.), I put in Looney Tunes, and we watched cartoons. I got such a kick out of hearing the sound effects, but didn’t stay awake long enough to fully experience the broad spectrum of noises! But that’s my new plan, to go back and watch some more Warner Brothers goodness, especially my Bugs Bunny!

 

Tape, Paper, Scissors Tuesday, November 7, 2006

Today’s in-class demo was cool. Not because of the techniques we were learning, but because of what I could hear. I was enthralled with the discovery of different sounds.

When the room was silent, from a distance of 15 feet or so, I could hear the “thrrrp” of the masking tape as strips were torn off. The “nnshhhhhttt-nnsht-nsssht” of the scissors cutting through the posterboard. And the “crrkthhttttt” as the two halves separated from each other.

I’ve been able to hear it with the hearing aid, but only if I was the one who was wielding those items and making the noises. The tape was especially cool, because I’ve never heard the sound of it ripping off. Pulling it off from the roll, yes, ripping off, no.

I couldn’t hear it with the HA from that distance, but I could with the CI, and the sound was much more detailed than I remember with the HA. I almost wanted to ask him to keep going with the different tools, because I was having so much fun listening to it.

I did notice that the CI did not pick up the squeaking of the chair that Sam was sitting in, but the HA did.

I saw the doc today about the two episodes of the room-spinning, and he said to keep an eye on it. There are so many factors involved in it, that it’s hard to determine if the CI has any effect on it. The fact that the episode only lasts less than a few seconds, and has no precursor to it, doesn’t help much along with the fact that I do not have an history of passing out.

If there was a problem with the CI, it’d be more likely that it would be of a longer duration (like after my 1st surgery). Because the eardrum looks fine, there’s no change in listening, and the CI is still working, it’s hard to say if the CI has anything to do with it.

It could be stress. It could be eating on an irregular basis. It could be lack of sleep. It could be for totally random reasons.

He did say that I may I need to get on a regular sleeping pattern for the week AND the weekend. That should help with my balance system to keep it in check. How many times have I heard that?

One thing that felt so weird during the exam was when he was pressing on the internal part. I could feel my eardrum moving back and forth. He said it was because he was increasing the pressure in the inner ear when he was pushing down on the implant.

 

Scattergories And Episode #2 Monday, November 6, 2006

Filed under: dizziness,feelings,listening therapy,mandy,scared,school — Allison @ 9:15 pm

For listening practice, Mandy and I played Scattergories. It’s good because it forces us to exercise our mind and come up with words. For listening, this game gives me the first letter of the word, and category it is, maybe a bit easy, but still fun.

After we were done, I did an errand on campus, and I had my 2nd episode of the room spinning. This time I was standing up, talking to the guys about recovering the data off of my LaCie. I felt my legs go weak, then saw the room move. Thanks to my fast reflexes, I grabbed the counter just in time, which stopped the episode. I felt shaky afterwards, but I think it was the fear of it.

If it happens at home, I don’t care, but if it’s at school, it’s embarassing.